Meet my insecurities, let’s count in one, two, three

Meet my insecurities, let’s count in one, two, three

This song by Lova is on the radio at the moment. I love this quote about the song from the artist herself:

This song I hold near and dear to my heart. It’s about me realizing and accepting my insecurities and taking control over my own life. Having insecurities doesn’t make you weak but loving them makes you strong. Life isn’t black or white, right or wrong, life is messy and has many complex layers. So try to accept and love every part of yourself, ‘cause each thing makes you, you. I hope my song can be a reminder of that. I hope that when you’re having a bad day and maybe feeling insecure, it can lift you up and make you feel better about yourself.

And it really does make me feel better about myself after a night filled with worry. It’s OK not to be perfect. It’s OK to doubt, to be insecure, to feel “not good enough”. I even want to go as far as saying it’s normal, it’s human. Accepting that I don’t feel on top of the world every single day makes it easier. (Note that I’m not talking about mental illness such as depression or anxiety – that’s something else!)

For me, the trick is courage (or maybe stupidity and stubbornness). To do it anyway. Close my eyes and jump. Trust my wings. 

Especially the last words I have taken to heart. Never cackle. Ever.

What does this have to do with bullet journaling or dog training?

Because I don’t do “blind faith”. I stack the cards in my favor, by careful planning. It’s a way for me to take control, and to have control makes the worry go away. If I know the what, when, where and how, it’s easier to fly.

Tomorrow (Saturday), Tuesday, and Friday, I will be at Falsterbo Horse Show. I and my friend Emelie will do workshops for kids about how to greet and pet dogs, clicker training, photography, writing, and how to draw animals. I have printed and laminated photos for a display, and will also be talking about and selling my book.

And yes, I worry – about not being good enough, interesting enough. That it will all be a waste of time, money and effort. About bringing my dogs to a warm and crowded place. And a thousand other things. But I do it anyway! I plan for the difficulties I see, prepare the best I can, and grow my wings as big and strong as I can.

To quote another artist:

I believe I can fly

(And if you’re visiting Falsterbo Horse Show, come to the family corner and say hi!)

 

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